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A Life Update: Our Dog is Sick

March 26, 2016

Monday morning was bright and sunny. It was the first day of Spring Break and the kiddo and I spent our day wandering around the Botanic Garden and soaking up the sun. That afternoon we went to the gym and then to the brewery for dinner and drinks. I was looking forward to a great week and thinking about summer.

When we got home that night I tried to take our dog Maddie for a walk. We made it as far as the neighbor’s house when she put on the brakes and refused to move forward. We turned around. I gave her dinner. She didn’t eat. Never in her life has she turned down a meal or a walk.

I was worried.

First thing Tuesday morning I called the vet. The receptionist said they were booked all day but to bring her in so the doctor could take a look at her between appointments. An hour later the phone rang and the vet was on the other end sounding very concerned.

After a long day and a series of tests we learned that Maddie has a tumor on her spleen that had ruptured and was leaking blood into her abdomen. The vet said it was possible that it was a benign hemangioma but that it was more likely that it was hemangiosarcoma which is malignant, aggressive, and nasty. The only way to determine what was going on in there would be to open her up and remove her spleen. He said that if she made it through surgery and the tumor was benign she’d go on to live the rest of her life normally and die of something else someday. If the tumor was malignant the prognosis was much poorer. The surgery could buy her a few more weeks, maybe a few months. But that was it.

We opted out of the surgery and brought our girl home.

It was a hard decision but I think it was the right one. Maddie has always been exceptionally healthy (she had a UTI once – it was the only time she’s ever been sick) but she’s getting up there in age. Our best guess is that she’s eleven and a half but she may be twelve or more. The surgery would be hard on her and would most likely only buy her a little more time. Putting her through a major operation would only be delaying the inevitable. It’s also expensive and, while I hate that the cost is part of the decision, it is part of the decision. I’d pay any amount of money to keep her healthy forever – but I won’t put her through major surgery and pay thousands of dollars to keep her around for a few more weeks.

So we’re riding the canine cancer roller coaster and trying to hang on. We’re spoiling her rotten, giving her her favorite treats and smothering her with more love than she probably wants (being the independent girl she is). We’re taking her for walks when she feels up to it and opening all the blinds so she has access to sunny spots galore. We’re taking care of her as best we can.

The day after she was diagnosed we were hit with an unexpected blizzard. The snow fell hard all day but when night came the sky had cleared. I was putting on my boots to go shovel the snow when Maddie came running down the stairs and stood there wagging her tail at me like she does when she wants to go for a walk. I put her leash on and we slowly made our way around the block on slippery sidewalks. There was a foot and a half of fresh snow on the ground and a full moon in the sky and we were out adventuring (even if it was in the most tame way possible) and things felt good again.

She’s been feeling really good for the last couple days and is mostly back to her old self. She’s barking at the neighbors, playing with her sister, and bouncing around when it’s time for dinner. I know these moments are fleeting but I’m going to enjoy the hell out of them while I can.

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  • Reply Deb March 26, 2016 at 3:11 pm

    Oh Jen! Sorry to hear this news. Our dogs are such a big part of our family. I’m dreading that time as we have an 11 year old lab ourselves. Best wishes to you all to enjoy these moments.

    • Reply jendz March 26, 2016 at 3:17 pm

      Thanks, Deb! I hope your baby has many more healthy years to come. <3

  • Reply Amy H March 26, 2016 at 4:05 pm

    Sending much love to Mountain Maddie, to you, Josh, little dude, and spots.

    F U Cancer.

    • Reply jendz March 26, 2016 at 4:42 pm

      Thanks lady!

  • Reply Mari G March 26, 2016 at 8:23 pm

    Thinking of you and of Maddie and hoping you can enjoy as much time as possible with her.

    • Reply jendz March 28, 2016 at 2:33 pm

      Thanks Mari!

  • Reply Beth March 26, 2016 at 10:05 pm

    Been reading your blog since the days you were on the lab forum – I’m so, so sorry to read your post here. We lost our Lucy in January, so I know how your heart is heavy. You’ll make Maddie’s time as happy and comfortable as possible, and she’ll know she is loved by her people. Hang in there during this difficult stage of her life.

    • Reply jendz March 28, 2016 at 2:34 pm

      Thanks Beth. I remember you well! I’m so sorry to hear about Lucy. 🙁

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